tell the world what you've brought me through
Whatever I don't understand
Must rest secure in Your strong Hand
Devotional articles and poetry that come from a 40-something disabled lady's spiritual journey. Her hope is to inspire the reader to draw closer to Jesus and have a clearer view of His beautiful Heart.
You may know about spirits and spiritual things. But did you know there is a Holy Spirit who wants to help you? The Bible says, the Holy Spirit will teach us about Jesus and lead us to His Heart. He wants to reveal to you who Jesus really is! Not what any religion says He is, but who GOD says He is.
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This is a picture of my husband bill putting gas in the car so that we can go out and celebrate our anniversary. I can hardly believe it has been nine whole years! Sometimes it seems like only a few months ago! This day is such a blessing because we have been sick for so long. I began to wonder if perhaps this anniversary would pass us by as so many other special ocasions have done before. But now we are on our way to red lobster praise the Lord!
Two people in the past couple weeks have said I have changed. That I'm not the same happy cheery girl I used to be. It seems to bring them concern. Granted my life has changed a lot. My world seems to have gotten smaller. Not as many willing friends to take me out or hang out. Not near the Human interaction I once had. I used to be able to sit with pen and paper and write 200+ names of people I knew. Most I had seen within the past few months. Now there may be a dozen. Being home a lot makes it hard to reconnect. I can't expect everyone to reach out to me. I so miss my church.
Any thoughts? Is there anyone to take me to church?
Last night was an especially painful one. The fact that I'm able to reach the keyboard is practically miraculous in itself. When my helper went to the store and Hubby was still sleeping, a song started to rise up in my heart. An OLD Twila Paris tune. Very simple but profound. "Oh,Lord...You have been good. You have been faithful to all generations. Oh Lord, Your steadfast Love and tender Mercies have been our Salvation. For by Your Hand we have been fed. And by You Spirit, we have been led...Oh Lord..."
Such a simple yet profound song of acknowledgement and praise to our God Who IS the sustainer of EVERYTHING! Just welling up inside me as that song rang out in my spirit... the recollection of last night. How many times and how many hours my precious and devoted husband worked and struggled to get me out of pain. He was so exhausted....so stressed. Seemed so little he did helped...as hard and long as he tried. So much love restrained him from simply throwing up his hands in despair. He kept trying and kept trying...till the wee hrs of the morning. It was 4 when I just couldn't handle any more of the day. He was too stressed to sleep. I don't know when he went to bed.
Remembering this today, along with the words to that song, the Lord whispered another reminder in my heart. A long time ago I was given a promise from Him, that there WOULD be arms to hold me. But I MUST remember it would be my FATHER"S Love that would flow though those arms. I took that as a Holy Promise that I would be married one day. 13yrs later, He fulfilled that promise through Bill. Last night became a powerful illustration......
How long have I been broken spiritually...perhaps in pain but too tense to even KNOW if all the attempts my Loving Father are making to heal me are working, or maybe even have gone unappreciated??? How many times has He tried to comfort me but I'm so caught up in my misery that I can't even receive it.... or maybe don't even NOTICE! How many times have I turned to a pain killer, muscle relaxer, or decongestant, rather than the One who can Actually FIX me???
Thats EXACTLY what Bill was trying to do last night. He tried and tried and used so much energy. The revelation this morning was, only GOD can "fix" me. So I prayed and asked Him to fix me. What ever that means. Now I wonder how many things need fixing that ONLY HE knows about.
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After reading that, this came to me. There are so many spiritual things broken or left unfinished. No band-aid or pill would ever cure or treat these. Today, while listening to another song, "let it rain," the prayer started from inside... "Lord rain on us and reign IN us. For without your Reign AND Your Rain we will never be what You want us to be." Now while writing this, it seems apparent that without Jesus Reigning as King and Lord and having complete Rule over me, I quite possibly NEVER benefit from His Rain, aside from a fleeting burst of pleasant emotion. So if you beg for God to "Show you His Glory" or "Let It Rain" or "Let the River Flow" and you just LIVE from weekend to weekend to get that rush... Just maybe its time to examine who's Reigning Monday-Thursday (or Sat).
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Love,
Rebecca
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Do u remember this story? These guys were expert fishermen. They tried their best and caught nothing! They were exhausted! Why should the even consider trying again?
Comon sense would scream INSANITY! (You know...doing the same thing over and over, expecting a different outcome.) But there WAS something VERY differrent this time. All night they worked in their own strength, by their own limited perspectives. But now, Jesus was not only 'in the boat', but He was guiding them. And unknown to them ALL of Creation was at His command. Even the fish!
How often do we think a calling or dream is over, too hard, or maybe we're just not qualified...so we just don't step out again? Could it be we've "toiled all night" in our own strength, ideas and limited perspective? Could it be that if we ask Jesus into our boat...not as a passenger, or even co-pilot, but as Mighty Captain, that ship will finally get to its designed destination, might you finally accomplish your true purpose in life?
Now I'm not saying there still won't be storms and nights w/ no wind to fill your sails. Just that you'll never be alone or truly lost again. That is...unless you decide to take back the wheel. You see...on the wheel, there's only room for one pair of hands.
Sail On!
Love,
Rebecca Thames
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I've heard of people, and even met one, who've even overcome CANCER w/ a possitive outlook! Jesus said, If you can only believe, ALL things are possible with God. (emphasis mine)
So lets think for a minute. Just as light cancels and drives out darkness, wouldn't praise, thankfulness and gratitude drive of things like greed, anger, self-pitty, jealousy, and any form of discontentment? Sure seems right to me.
You see, if we're busy thanking and praising God for His goodness, His greatness, His power to save, His all-sufficiency...then we're acknowledging His ability to take care of us and handle ALL our concerns.
If we're honest we'll admit that most are way to big for us to carry. No matter how hard we try. We weren't built for that kind of load. Thats why the Scripture says, Casting your cares on Him, for He cares FOR you. Believe it or not, thats worth celebrating over. Since He's doing the caring, YOU DON'T HAVE TO! :-D
Here's kinda what I prayed this morning. Maybe you might try something similar:
Dear Lord God, please wash my heart and take away all the ugly stuff. Please ignite in me a heart full of praise and gratitude. For how can anger, anxiety, worry, or fear possible live in a heart filled praise thankfulness and grattitude!? Thank you so much! Amen!
Love,
Rebecca Thames
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Before that we'd had a Drs appt the Monday before Christmas. Before that I think it was Walmart sometime in November. Plus its been months since I've been to church. I hate to say it, but this is where I am right now.
All this is to say, this is the closest to a "shut-in" I've ever been since the invention of pulic transit for wheelchair people, when I was 8 yrs old!
After that we had no excuse to stay home even though my mom also was in a wheelchair. She was the oe who got us all ready to go out. No excuses. Now it seems like any old excuse will do to just stay home. Too cold, too damp, flurries possible, too warm, too windy, a little achy today, too tired... The list goes on and on.
I've wondered if my life had become rather trivial...mundane. You know, a lotta stay-at-home moms go through it...get breakfast, open the mail, pay bills, clean house, plan dinner, watch tv.... some details vary, but many lists are similar. You may through in laundry or shopping trips or something the kids need on your basic list, but primarily they're the same.
I've been meaning to write this a while now, but something crazy happenned. Bill and I both got pretty sick last Sun night...sudden, vioolent and persistant stomache flu. Pretty traumatic for both of us. Especcially when each other was all we each had.
But once again the Lord came through in ways I never expected. He sent help when we needed it most and we pretty much slept the rest of the time. Today, after a whole week, we've both been feeling maybe 90% better.
Somehow that super-down time gave me a slightly different perspective. Maybe life wasn't so trivial after all. Even though I could barely keep my tummy together half the time, I found so much joy in any little thing I could do to make Bill's life any little bit easier or more comfortable. It was a great reminder...thats my real job-tittle "Help-meet" for Bill. That's what the Lord has called me to. And I'll only be most fulfilled when I'm truly filling that role to the best of my physical, emotional and spiritual ability.
So I suppose through a terrible illness, perhaps the Lord has used it to teach me. Take the "trivial" or "mundane" parts of life and fit them into their propper place to compliment and enhance my role in Bill's life and my life will truly go from "trivial" to Triumph! Thank You Jesus!
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY
SWEETHEART!
Love,
Rebecca Thames
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